Chapter 56

Chapter 56

We received casting offer in advance through PD Lee Jongmyeong but no exception in submitting the application.

Submission documents included basic things like application, band introduction, playing video etc and we all minors so needed guardian consent form for broadcast appearance.

“Everyone brought consent form?”

“Ah, right.”

“Hey, Heo Junseong... You on earth...”

“Ah until application deadline still 2 weeks left.”

“Still have to do in advance.”

Kang Min and Kim Jihu already brought consent form a few days ago but Heo Junseong forgot today too.

You our team’s strongest idiot.

“Lee Doyoung you?”

“Ah, I...”

The thorough guy unable to prepare documents for a few days.

Naturally not forgot.

Is something happening.

“Tomorrow will really bring.”

“Yeah, okay.”

Decided not to ask details.

Because thorough guy will do well on his own.

If problem arises will discuss.

And anyway Lee Doyoung’s situation is situation...

“Heo Junseong you really bring tomorrow.”

“Hey, Cha Seoha. You treating Lee Doyoung and me a bit different?”

“Not a bit blatantly discriminating.”

“No, this?”

* * *

Fortunate there is clumsy Junseong.

Seoha didn’t urge me or anything but now really have to bring the consent form.

The program producer directly even requested recruitment to our band.

Because I said let’s go on this program.

Everyone practicing until fingers break for the audition program.

Today definitely have to tell parents.

After finishing school trying to go home the homeroom teacher stopped me.

“Doyoung.”

“Yes.”

“You preparing this mock exam well?”

“Yes, doing hard.”

“You March grades dropped a lot. School worries a lot.”

“Ah, yes, no need to worry.”

“How decided on career?”

“Will tell soon.”

“Yeah, think well and decide. Teacher too regrettable.”

“Understood.”

Not only the homeroom teacher the whole school knows what I am doing.

From school festival even came out on TV a few times.

Teacher worries and friends cheer.

And at home naturally opposition severe...

What should I do.

Want to do music.

If can continue only music could give up study.

But parents’ opposition hard to defy.

If see me doing music will recall the hyung who went to heaven.

The thought that pursuing my happiness is a thing giving wounds to parents doesn’t stop.

Really what should I do.

“Hey, Lee Doyoung.”

“Oh, Seoha. Not went home?”

“You crying face all day how go home?”

“Huh? Me?”

“Yeah guy.”

The hand Seoha put on the shoulder somehow felt reliable.

“Shall we eat something delicious?”

“Yeah, good.”

“What want to eat?”

“Anything except hamburger.”

“Very excellent choice.”

The menu we chose was the snack bar in front of the school.

“Hard to tell home?”

“Yeah, anyway not easy.”

On Lee Doyoung’s expression picking at the tteokbokki full of worry.

“If say will go there clearly will worry.”

“Right my thought also that.”

Worried a lot.

Going on broadcast is Oktap’s choice but thinking of Lee Doyoung’s family situation won’t easily permit.

Not simply worried about Lee Doyoung’s position but concerned the relationship with parents might twist.

“But Doyoung this is opportunity.”

“Opportunity?”

“Yeah, what we gain from that program not simply opportunity for you to question that PD. Going to prove your hyung wasn’t wrong.”

“Yeah, right. Thinking about it that reason bigger.”

Smart Lee Doyoung understood my words at once and nodded.

“Boldly tell parents. Your hyung absolutely not wrong and will definitely prove that.”

“Yeah.”

Still courage not settling in the guy’s eye light.

While choosing words wondering what more to say Lee Doyoung opened mouth first.

“If alone originally wouldn’t even try.”

“Is that so?”

“Yeah, but Seoha you keep showing us amazing things. Not long since I entered the music scene but know we are producing unrealistic results now.”

In Lee Doyoung’s voice some emotion gradually seeping.

“So will definitely get permission using you as excuse. If together with you and other kids can do even more absurd things.”

Courage filling to the point overflowing.

Lee Doyoung is a smart guy and unexpectedly has straightforward aspect.

“Yeah, no need for me to say more.”

“Yeah, this time I will do well alone.”

“Believe.”

“Thank you.”

* * *

Ate with Seoha and immediately headed home.

Returning home only empty living room welcomed me.

Put down the bag and fiddled with the parent consent form placed on the desk.

“Can do.”

Entered the hyung’s room still left as then.

Everything as is.

Mom still cleans this room every day.

On hyung’s anniversary set food hyung liked in life with parents and prayed.

Lee Dohyeon.

Genius bassist.

Hyung 8 years older than me.

My goal.

Approaching 3 years since that hyung left.

Hyung, I am also doing band.

Playing the bass hyung loved so much.

Watching?

I also released album with friends.

Envious?

If could convey such words directly to hyung now what would hyung answer?

Would have said don’t play around and study.

Because originally like that.

And I decided to go on the program that person made with friends.

Don’t know well if mom will permit but cheer so can do.

In the small frame on the desk hyung was smiling brightly.

Holding the bass.

-Beep beep beep...

At that time the sound of the front door lock opening was heard.

Probably mom.

Did deep breath and after gathering heart for a long time I went out to the living room.

“Mom.”

“Oh, Doyoung came? Came early.”

“Yes, mom I have words to give.”

“What?”

Not even pulled out the main point but felt mom’s nerves standing on end.

Recently such things many.

I held out the paper now familiar to mom and to me.

“Again something to go on broadcast?”

“Yes.”

“Doyoung...”

Mom sat in the living room and looked up at me.

An expression of until when like that.

“Mom, this is audition program.”

“...That what...”

“PD Lee Jongmyeong made. Person who made the broadcast hyung went on.”

“No. Absolutely no.”

Mom’s voice trembled.

A voice as if about to burst into tears right away.

At that trembling I also seemed about to cry but endured.

“Doyoung, why you go there. Who that person is! If you also go wrong mom really can’t live. How that person did to your hyung!”

Mom’s voice heard like a scream.

The tragedy of 3 years ago.

Mom couldn’t forget even one moment.

Eye corners heated but I didn’t avoid gaze.

“Know. So more have to go.”

“Doyoung!”

“Hyung didn’t fail. That PD was cowardly. Hyung’s music wasn’t wrong and I will prove that.”

“You, really...”

“Will show directly to the person who ruined hyung. How tremendous hyung’s younger brother, hyung’s music.”

And recalled.

Precious friends who will help that.

“If alone would have been scary. But I have friends. Seoha said. This opportunity to show hyung wasn’t wrong.”

In the end tears dropped from mom’s eyes.

The hand tightly gripping the sleeve trembled, mom’s pupils full of fear fully contained my appearance.

“Must do that? Can’t just live like others?”

“Please let complete the stage hyung couldn’t finish. That’s my happiness.”

Mom’s sigh deeper than abyss continued.

“Mom, please believe. If can’t prove hyung I also can’t live.”

Silence continued for a long time.

The clock’s second hand sound unusually loud.

Mom who looked at me for a long time in the end picked up the pen.

The three characters of the name writing down with trembling hand.

That was permission and the most painful support.

“Instead make one promise.”

“Yes, mom.”

“Absolutely don’t hurt alone. If something come to mom right away. Discuss with mom first before friends. That fine.”

On the paper mom held out the name written pressing firmly written.

“Thank you. Mom, will do well and come.”

Leaving mom avoiding gaze behind I returned to hyung’s room.

The hyung in the photo still smiling brightly.

“Hyung, saw? I now start.

From the living room mom’s suppressed crying sound heard.

But in my heart cold fighting spirit and hot aspiration burned at the same time.

* * *

“Heo Junseong you this bastard forgetting today too?”

“Ah, haha! Yesterday me with kids after school basketball and entered so forgot!”

“You really go out.”

Heo Junseong really won’t do.

Tomorrow I go find directly or something.

“Um, I brought consent form.”

Lee Doyoung held out the consent form.

In an instant the heart surged.

This guy...

Lee Doyoung looking at me smiling brightly.

“Thank you Seoha.”

“No, worked hard.”

Before other guys catch the hint I took care of the consent form Lee Doyoung handed.

Couldn’t know what conversation shared with parents.

Probably not easy fight.

Lee Doyoung personality wouldn’t have defiantly opposed.

What I can confirm only this one paper.

Could guess the weight of the conversation the guy experienced yesterday.

On our appearance not only Oktap’s future but one family’s peace depended.

Somehow felt shoulders heavier but can’t retreat.

Now if only submit documents everything will start.

“Hey, Heo Junseong you try resembling only half of Kim Jihu.”

“What? Damn, tomorrow will definitely bring I!”

Then do so.