Chapter 75

Chapter 75

Chapter 75. Don't know with what mind finished the remaining date and returned home.

Even while washing that thought didn't stop.

Because of the complicated head today also drove out the maids and soaked the body in the bathtub alone.

Thought the information value might change since cheerfully twisted the original, but from my position who saw Lus from ten years old it was a shocking matter.‘Lus likes me? Me?’ I was seen as a woman?

Wasn't five years difference enormously big to a ten-year-old?

When I was ten years old seeing middle school 2nd grade older sisters, older brothers seemed all enormously big adults?‘Perhaps possibility of misunderstanding...’ No way.

Realizing now Lus seemed no mind to hide the fact he likes me to the extent of wondering why didn't notice earlier.

From the beginning if there was mind to hide wouldn't have said ‘older sister, like the most in the world’ every day.

At that time just thought our Lus is honest in expressing affection...

I sincerely thought those words as the level of writing ‘Teacher, thank you. I love you’ on the teacher's day carnation ribbon.

Well even without loving the teacher romantically everyone writes like that habitually.

The words of loving are such a comprehensive emotion.

I carefully thought of the future of living together with Lus without divorcing.

Lus who became an adult would be much cooler than now.

Attached a lot of affection seeing from young, and also received a lot of comfort.

I also liked Lus to the extent of becoming depressed thinking of separating from Lus.

Since became like this, thought of stealing the flags the female lead sets and diligently seducing Lus from my side, but there was a very big problem for that.‘Lus is a face-blind...!’ Flag?

Have to have set a flag from the beginning to steal.

The original I possessed was a ruin 19+ thing that almost went to obsession and confinement.

More nakedly speaking a novel where the male lead and female lead sticking together is half the volume.

That was the original.

The male lead Lus falls in love at first sight as soon as seeing the female lead only himself not realizing, and goes to kiss right on the first day meeting.

For reference it took exactly 30 more pages to go to the bed.

Because went to the bed right on the next meeting.

Laughed ‘this really a guy crazy about the female lead?’ because tries to go to the bed whenever seeing only the female lead throughout the novel...

Can steal the flag, but couldn't steal the face taste.‘For now dating now and aiming later...’ Then if Lus meets the female lead like the original and falls in love at first sight again?‘Dislike being abandoned.’ I saw the water droplets falling with empty eyes.

The couple who adopted me had no child for a long time.

Became the child they want wanting to be loved, but when a biological child arose abandoned me.

In that process they didn't abuse me.

Just inevitably revealed in actions.‘You have a picnic today why didn't say? Contact came from the teacher saying only you didn't pack a lunch box.’‘Said in advance...’‘Knowing busy because of the younger sibling necessarily shaming like that. Just buying kimbap in front would have done. Can't you do well on your own a bit?’‘Can't go to the amusement park tomorrow.’‘Promised from one month ago.’‘The younger sibling still cries a lot if going outside. Instead play fun with dad at home?’‘Honey! Look at this! The kid seems saying mom!’‘What? Really? Let me see, our baby, it's dad, dad.’ Between the family perfectly formed centered on the newly born child I was gradually pushed to the back.

Tried harder wanting to be loved but in the end when abandoned wasn't even surprised.

Whether because of that couldn't date even before possession.

There were also people who said like me, and people I had favor toward.

But afraid of the future of separating from that person.

Seemed that person also would abandon me and go to another person someday.‘This damn human distrust.’ A cliché word but hope the person I love really dedicates the whole life and loves only me for life.

Will Lus say let's separate to me when seeing the female lead?

Can I really separate from Lus at that time?

If obsessing there that was exactly the special express train to villainess.

I shook my head and hit both cheeks with both hands.

Even thinking more only becomes depressed.

“For now pretend not to know.”

From the beginning how long does first love last.

I also had an older brother level I liked when fifteen years old.

Now don't even remember how looked.

Rather than dating for nothing and separating later and becoming awkward to each other, remaining as a good older sister, younger sibling until the end would be good for Lus too.

Pretending not to know and living as usual, Lus will fold his heart on his own.

Just have to avoid receiving a confession.

“Just think as the position changed from the villainess one-sided loving the male lead to the first love older sister the male lead liked.”

Thinking that the heart became much more comfortable.

My goal is becoming a cool older sister who can tease ‘Lus you, liked me?’ to the Lus of that time after about 50 years later.

* * *Lucius glared at Blackie on the table with a displeased face.

Blackie was wearing the yellow hat for dogs Felia bought while shopping today on his head.

“What does older sister like such things...”

Knowing won't be heard anyway Blackie carefully protested alone.[Always only scolding me...]

“If dislike being scolded just not sticking beside older sister will do...”

For a moment, the two's gazes collided in the air.[D-d-did you hear my words now?]

Blackie startled and flew up from the spot.[Heard my words, right? Right? Not even a spirit beast how on earth heard?]

Lucius pretended not to know Blackie's words, but seemed flustered rarely.

Blackie's gaze headed toward Lucius's shadow.[No, not a spirit beast. If not a contractor and not a spirit beast, demonic beast...]

Before Blackie's words even finished Lucius grabbed Blackie's neck and pressed against the wall.

“Shut that mouth.”

Blackie struggled with all might, but couldn't escape from Lucius's grip.

The beast in Lucius's shadow long howled seeing such his appearance.

Seemed not knowing what to do enjoying this situation now.[When on earth did you know... kuk!]

Lucius put strength in his hand and covered Blackie's mouth.

Quite a while since became able to hear this guy's words.

The aftermath of the demonic beast's power also returning as memories returned.

Until now pretended not to know well but because of the mood loosening while dating today let down guard.

Lucius first confirmed the most important fact.

“Do other guys also know I'm a demonic beast when seeing me?”[No. Won't know. Amazing how can hide like that.]

“...

At least fortunate.”[No matter a demonic beast can't hear the spirit beast's voice. Unless a considerably strong demonic beast.]

Blackie's blue eyes shone pure blue.[What on earth are you raising inside?]

“Someday when the time comes I'll reveal directly. So don't say to older sister.”[When? After 10 minutes?]

“Do I look like joking now?”[I'm also sincere. As the spirit beast contracted with Master I can't just leave a being that can be a threat to Master.]

“Rather than putting a threat to older sister I'll cut my arm so you be quiet.”

The two glared at each other without saying anything.

Ordinarily Blackie who would have been scared and avoided the gaze long ago also didn't easily retreat today.‘Just kill this guy? Then can cover the mouth, and monopolize older sister too.’ Strong killing intent passed in Lucius's eyes.

Demonic energy started rampaging violently from his body to the extent even himself couldn't control.[If killing me Master will be sad.]

Blackie who noticed Lucius's gaze said in a trembling voice.

At those words the killing intent aiming at Blackie's neck like a blade quieted in an instant.

If ordinary Lucius's appearance nothing strange, but thinking a demonic beast too strange an appearance.

Basically to demonic beasts the concept of cherishing other people doesn't exist.

What demonic beasts regard important is only their own pleasure and instinct.

Never heard even once a story of a demonic beast cutting his own arm rather than harming other people.

That appearance slightly shook Blackie's heart.[...

I'll only say to Master the beast living in your shadow became thicker. I'll keep the demonic beast a secret.]

“You, what did you hear my words as. Don't even twitch the mouth to older sister.”[Anyway Master knows a beast is living in your shadow. I saw and said last time. Knew the identity today though.]

“...

Older sister knows?”[Also said to stay away from you.]

“You...!”[Not doing so is Master's choice.]* * *Returning to the room after washing, Blackie was lying alone on the cushion and saw me and stood up abruptly.[Came, Master?]

“Yeah. Where did Lus go?”[Said has something to look into and went out for a moment.]

“Now time to sleep?”

Did even the date so okay to just rest for one day today.

“Do you like the hat?”[Yes.]

Heading to the vanity, Blackie's gaze followed.

“Is there something to say?”

Blackie hesitated for a moment then said.[Lucius said one thing to keep secret from me, shall I tell?]

“Decided to keep secret okay to say to me?”[Because my contractor is Master.]

“Our Blackie, extremely loyal subject.”

I gently stroked Blackie's nose bridge.

“Still if decided to keep secret with Lus have to pretend not to know.”

Anyway Lus regards Blackie as an eyesore how much.

Curious what Lus said to keep secret, but if hearing that fact might reach an irreversible state between Lus and Blackie.[Then I'll only say this. Master, the beast living in Lucius's shadow became stronger.]

“Wait, what does that mean?”[Literally. The power of the beast living in the shadow became stronger than before.]

“...

Does Lus also know that fact?”

When Blackie first said saw the beast living in Lus's shadow, Lus didn't know that fact.

The next also the same.[Now knows.]

Lus learned a beast lives in his own shadow.

Anyway not content importantly dealt with in the original, so didn't want to confuse Lus for nothing.

I pondered for a moment and asked.

“Will that harm Lus?”[Won't become harm to that guy. But can inflict damage to Master.]

“...”[Still will you keep that kid beside, Master?]

“...

Said. No thought of staying away from him from my side before Lus does something.”[If that identity is a demonic beast? Still will Master be beside him?]

“Yeah. Still will be beside.”

Even if Lus is a demonic beast the time I spent with Lus doesn't disappear.

When I first decided not to stay away from Lus and keep beside and the current situation not greatly changed either.

Just the difference of now being able to call the ‘unknown beast’ living in Lus's shadow ‘demonic beast’ shortened.

“But Blackie, the secret you tried to hide surely not Lus being a demonic beast, or the beast living in that shadow being a demonic beast or such?”